Creativity Comeback

I haven't written a blog post in 6 years. That still small voice in my head kept saying, "Blog. Blog. Blog." Alright already! I have procrastinated writing and publishing this post for weeks now. I certainly will not sum up everything that has happened in the last six years, but I will share some highlights: I got married to a wonderful man named Trevor, moved into a new house, and spent the bulk of my time and energy focusing on my teaching career. I am at a pivotal point in my life where I need to come back to writing.

I read through my previous posts on this blog and decided to delete a couple of them because they don't reflect who I am anymore. That being said, I've been in hiding and quite fearful of my creativity for a while. My creative pursuits have been dismal to none. As I furthered my teaching career, I became entrenched in red tape and fatigue. My creative interests took a backseat. As a teacher, I create lessons, which allows me to still be creative - but I have another, deeper side of creativity that has been silenced. I am welcoming this shift out of fear. I am saying 'Goodbye' to the F word (fear) and 'Hello' to my budding creativity. She is ready to sprout and grow with some much needed water and sunshine.

Fear

I am learning how intense this word is and how it can negatively impact one's life. I cannot and will not allow fear to dampen my creative pursuits. 

Fear of other people's opinions.

I suppose if I always keep everything private, but still write - I'm still being creative. But there is that larger force that beckons the sharing of creative gifts. I would never publicly post my daily journal for all to read. As a lifelong writer though, I desire to share my writing with others who need inspiration in moving forward as creative, expressive individuals.

I may be a private person, but does everything need to be such a secret? There were moments within the last 6 years where I would start crying in a hopeless panic that I wasn't living my life expressively. My emotions were alerting me that I was casting a deep, dark shadow on my creative joie de vivre. There is a big difference between sharing information on the Internet or social media just to look cool and make money versus sharing as a form of expression. All that to say, I'm not blogging in order to look cool, sell myself out, or kill time. I'm blogging to make connections and share my thoughts on something I still find undeniably crucial to one's wellbeing:

Creativity.

If you are reading this right now, I hope you take time daily for creative pursuits. If not daily-at least weekly. It's all too easy sometimes to come home after a hard day's work and sit mindlessly on the couch watching t.v. Those days are definitely good to have sometimes - but every day? I challenge you to pick one or two days to flex your creative muscle instead of deadening your brain cells.

Dance has fallen out of my life for the most part. There came a point in my late twenties where I had to say goodbye to my Argentine tango chapter - as lovely and life giving as it was. I still like to dance of course - but it's usually only at weddings these days. Who knows - that chapter of my life may revive itself at some point. But for now, my eye is on other creative pursuits...writing being one of them. I don't want to limit myself to just writing or dancing. I'm open to other creative pursuits at this time in my life. If you have some fun ideas, please share in the comment section.